Help! The thought of giving birth makes me physically ill and terrified.?

My mom had horrible hospital births and was poorly treated. I resolved to do things differently. I had my babies at a birth center. Look for the book, Natural Childbirth the Bradley Way. Birth does not have to be a horrible experience. It can be a wonderful time for you that you look back upon with happy memories. I have had four very good births. Also the c-sec rate for the Bradley method is only 5% and the infant mortality rate is much better than the national average. With the Bradley method, you are allowed to eat and drink during labor. An episiotomy is seldom done. Ninety percent of those who use the Bradley method do not need pain medication. I only had a moderate, dull ache during contractions; it was not severe pain.